10% luck, 20%skills, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% pain

had a really obscure dream last night.

so, i was with dis chick in the restaurant/pub and we're talking talking then started kissing, it was kinda wet for some reason, anyway, this dude sitting nxt to us started getting funny wif my woman, he was trying to touch and stuff, so i grab his wrist and said "fuck off dude, nobody try anything funny wif my woman." so the bloke stood up, i stood up too, and in my dream i know i'm a bit drunk and i know i can't swing a punch at the condition i'm in, so wat i did was i run all the way outside, grabed a 2 by 2, and swinged at him. droped him in 1 swing. i was disgusted, coz it was a really weak swing. anyway, he was on the floor, so i bashed him a couple more times until he was sorry or unconscious, can't remember, but hopefully un-conscious. then it was like fast forward. and i was at the same restaurant/pub again, the same dude was there, and dis time he got a hammer, and i also have a small hammer and for some reason i'm still kinda drunk. and so he charged at me wif the hammer, and i dodged it. aha. and grabed his hammer and droped him onto the floor, and i know dis time i've got to finish him and send him to kingdom come. but for some reason i couldn't do it, i know its either me or him but i just can't do it. so, in that split second i know i was dead. then flash, i was at the same place again!! dis time the same motherfucker came at me wif a hammer and chisel and i was un-armed. i know its a dream but i started to feel a bit ridiculous and then i was watching myself, like an out of body experience and i thought. wat the hell is he gonna do with dat? hammer and chisel me to death? who takes a hammer and chisel to a fight? anyway, i got a few hits here and there and then bang i woke up....

wat an obscure dream

redemption impossiball

good god !

i never thought dat day would come. but it came, the son killed the father. there is no way to redeem myself, unless renald can grow an extra 10 feet in height.

stan "tookie" williams

stanley william is a gang banger. he was convicted and sentenced to death. in fact his execution was quite recent, just a couple of weeks before christmas i think. there is something different wif dis gangster though. he's a nobel 'peace' prize nominee.

wat happend wif stan william is dat, while he was in solitary confinement, he started learning stuff and basically changed his persona, instead of a being a notorious gangster who founded the crips he campaigned for an end to the street violence, he tried to reach out to kids and teenagers and even appealed to his former gang members to stop the killings.

someppl say, anybody can be nominated for nobel prize, so according to them the whole thing is a publicity stunt by the non-death penalty supporters. well, bullshit, not anybody can be nominated, candidates are nominated by qualified ppl who have received invitation from the nobel committee, so u cant nominate u self or u spouse. wat really annoyed me was that its all prejudice disguised as righteous anger, fuck dis shit. i would be more tolerant to their veiw if they just come out and say, well he use to be a gang banger and we dont care if he changed or not we want him hang because we are mean, frustrated haters.

stanley william himself have not confessed of his crime, which was the murder of 4 ppl during an armed robbery, although he claim he was convicted by an all-white jury, he mayb playing up the story, who knows? truth is always the first casualty of war, especially in information and media war. but i think there is a sincere effort there to repent for past mistakes, and the real funny thing is he JUST GOT to be executed even though he put so much work into ending the violence, actually no, better make it ESPECIALLY because he puts so much effort into ending the street wars. u see its an perfect example of hard stance of government on street war. zero tolerance. its a tragedy but such is life. life is a comedy for ppl wif a dysfunctional sense of humor.

jolly fucking good holidaze

christmas and new year is finally over!! ok, as a rule, christmas is the lowest point in the year 4 me. everything feel like a fucking blur. just today i fell asleep on the couch in the afternoon around 3pm, and dats when i just woke up around 12 o'clock after 11 hours of sleep.

i dont even feel like myself anymore these couple of weeks, most of the time i dont even know wat the hell i'm doin, (hmm, guess something stays the same dont matter wat u do) i dunno mayb i havn't been playing guitar for too long, mayb i havn't had enough time to think. mayb i'm just too un-motivated, and the truth is of course, somewhere between all of the above.

reflecting about the last 6months, i guess there is always something that kept me busy, 3 days of uni everyweek, check out chicks in buseco and then hangin out wif the muiss ppl + 2 days of work, and yellow beans abused my optus phone on a almost daily basis because of yes time. tsk moochers =) hehe, actually i kinda missed talking to beans, she annoys the hell out of me sometime but u really get used to her voice, its almost a bit like renzi's cooking, u know its rubbish but its really delicious and "bouncy" rubbish and u just cant stop u self from eating it

well, new year is coming, although really its the same as yesterday and probably goin to be the same 2morow, although i'm secretly hoping 2morow will be better.